LOVE

When times get hard the word Love brings about peace,
when times get rough showing Love brings gratitude,
but when someone one else is in a storm of their own giving Love is a gift all its own. Lets try doing that all day and see how many gifts we receive from that alone.

L- is for the way you look at me
O-is your the only one I see
V-is very very extraordinary
E-is even more than any one could adore
and LOVE is all that I can give to You Love is just a silly game for two, two in Love can make it, take my heart and please don't break it LOVE was made for me and YOU. His Name is Jesus.

ABOUT ME

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Lancaster, Texas, United States
I am a single mother of four beautiful children. I have had my share of weight of the world and decided to make a page just for people who want to be able to talk about everyday situations and get things off of their chest. Many times the thing that we lack the most in life is someone to talk to and show us unconditional compassion. I am a Christian woman, so many topics that are related to helpful hints to overcome are good. I completed my BA Psychology degree in 2010 at Argosy University. I am currently enrolled in Liberty University in the Master of Arts Marriage and Family Therapist. My goal is to become a Psychologist on the Doctoral level which I hope to start by next fall. I have decided to make this site because it is nice to have someone to talk to every once in a while. So weather you need a poem to write or a shoulder to cry on I am here. I am not trying to do some experiment this is me, I really do care.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD.I AM A CHILD OF GOD; I EXIST ONLY TO BE A CHILD OF GOD.



IN THE PRESECENCE OF GOD
STEP 1:
PURPOSE IN YOUR HEART TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT
*(ORDINARY JUST WON’T DO)*
STEP 2:
YOU GOT TO TURN ASIDE
*(BEING IN HIS PRESCENCE IS NOT A MATTER OF OUR CONVENIENCE)*
STEP 3:
YOU MUST GET UP FROM WHERE YOU ARE
*(GO WHERE GOD IS)*
STEP 4:
LISTEN FOR GOD AND HE WILL TELL YOU WHERE TO GO NEXT.
STEP 5:
YOU MUST HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE TIME FOR GOD.
STEP 6:
NEVER BE LATE TO YOUR APPOINMENT WITH GOD
QUOTE
THE CHURCH CAN’T CHANGE YOU.
ONLY REMAIN IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD.
GOD WILL CHANGE YOU.

Monday, November 29, 2010

11/ 28/2010 MY GRANDADDY RESTING IN PEACE: Celebrating The Life Of A Leader

Today I lost my grandaddy. I never really knew him. All my memories of him was from a childs eyes. I wished that my children could have known him. But once again I messed things up. I eat okra because of him, I wonder will it ever taste the same. Rev. Roosevelt Williams gone on time for God. God's will has gone forth, who am I to complain, I just ask you Lord to realieve a little of this pain, and guilt. My moms all alone and I am to blame, because at times I forgot to call on Gods name. I want her to be here, her to smile and rejoice, for on the last day we will all hear HIS voice. SO don't cry don't fret, God is not done yet, just make sure your life is right before Him, or He'll say He never knew you. Grandaddy, rest for you had a great life, just thank God you prayed for your wife. She loves you and cares. Now she can rejoice in a time like this cause she knows while you lived you still cared.

To my family, please cry and get it out, then take up your cross and walk this walk out. Love you all.

Michelle Williams
Grandaughter

HELLO FATHER



The first day I met you it was so amazing. I saw nothing but I felt so much. The times when you rescued me from those who were there to harm me and from saved me from myself. I felt like I was not worth the speck of paint that was used to put on a canvas. Then one day you came and showed me a dream, a dream that you started in the beginning of time. You showed me a first darkness, then there was water under my toes, but there was something that went up my nose, a breath of life to help me see; the picture you were painting. Then there came a steady bright Light that showed a world not yet formed nor made, but in that Light there was peace calmness, I wondered what it was. Then I heard the sound of Thunder and as it, roared things began to appear. Waters were moving in the midst that air that I felt up my nose was centered there. Then there was a pulling away of the waters that you left below and some brown stuff start to show. You said that is called earth and then the thunder roared again but it was clear that it was someone speaking, although, it boomed it was ever so gentle. Then I saw trees, then flowers and animals and creatures running and jumping out of the water. I thought to myself what a pretty picture. Then all of a sudden, there was something forming from the dust, some dust that almost looks like rust. He was what he called a man, his job was to name the animals and control them, just to watch over the place, He also gave him a rule that demanded to stay away from a tree that was in my eyes so beautiful to me. Although I did not understand, it was yet God's command. Then one day the man began to get lonely. He talks to the animals, but they seemed not to understand.
I understood His every word. Then the thunder started again, and He put the man to sleep, it really made me wonder, what could be so deep, in his body that you are pulling out his flesh, then I felt a pain in my side, the thunder said, it is your time to rise. I watched in amazement as He created my legs, my breast, my toes, and the hair on my head. It flowed so long, so deep and so complete, He told me I was to be His helpmeet. I never knew exactly what He meant, but as I awaken from what I thought was just a dream, I am now in this painting, that He created for me. I saw the man stand before me and we were so complete, He said I was woman, it made me laugh, because He created me just like that Woe-Man…Because I must admit...woe-I was fine. My name was Eve- for I was mother of all living. He said that I am bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh, then I said oh I get that, because I was made from you and for you. As I looked at my man I saw, something that I wanted to cherish, the relationship he had with the man that created this masterpiece.
As the days go by, I realized that we were free and happy, and we were made to be there for Him, we call Him God because He is the creator of all. Well after He created us, He took a rest, and we just walk through the Garden, oh it has called the Garden of Eden. He told us who He was and how we came to be, I liked that part when He got to me. It made me feel special because I was seeing it all happen, except a small part when I feel asleep. He said He made something special in me, just for Adam and Me. He told everything to be fruitful and multiply, He looked at us with a sparkle in His eye. Every day on this day, we all would walk, but this day was special, we always learned more about Him. He was very mysterious, never knew what He would say next. One day Adam came to me and said do not forget…I said forget what? He said never to eat from that tree…God said it was forbidden for you and me. When I looked at the tree my mind said why, but I quickly relinquished it for He was the twinkle of my eye.
One day I decided to go for a walk, and did I find myself right in front of that tree. I was curious to know why we could touch it. Then I heard a voice, but it was sly and cunning, he questioned me on why I could not touch it. I then remembered God saying I should not even go near it, then I tried to step away the voice said come closer. This was not a familiar voice that I have heard within the garden I asked Him how he knows me and what is doing here, he said I want to answer the question that you desire, what dwelled in you before you came here. I heard you say that God said that you could not eat or come near me..I mean this tree. It is because He does not want you to be smart as He. As we talk my mind remembered all the times My God and husband and I had together, but the snake said you can still have all that just now you’ll never have to wonder why, you can’t come near me…I mean this tree. He was so cunning and tempted me with the fruit. As I bit into it I felt different, uncovered unveiled, not lovely, just a shell. I felt alone and torn apart. Then I wondered where they were. I wanted to show my husband what I have done, he cried at the thought as he bit our new world was undone. We hid from God as he came through the garden. He blamed my husband and not me. I wondered why this snake did this to me. As we all stood before him, my mind began to wonder over my husband’s body, with a feeling of longing and wonder, I was no longer longing for the relationship He had with our Father. I was ashamed for God was angry. He still covered us, maybe He knew what I was feeling. He said that we could no longer live there, so He sent an angle to cast us out of the garden, my home. However, not before cursing that old serpent, I wondered what that was all about. He told my husband he will sweat, I wondered what was that, he said in birth I would be in pain, but that was also a mystery to me. As me and husband journeyed on, he never ceased to talk to God, I felt that this was my entire fault, then I remembered the Light that was so calm. Whenever I would feel sad and ashamed, I would remember the Light and secretly call on His name. My husband and I found that secret gift that God gave us, and we gave birth to two sons. It was a hard pain that should never have been, if I would have been faithful.

My son’s names were Cain and Able. Able was Gods favorite, He did everything right before My Lord. Cain was the opposite he always tried to cut corners always wondered and thought what if, I wondered was he his mother’s son. Adam worked hard. So did the boys. I did not know the anger building in my oldest son against his brother. When I found out what he had done to Able I thought when I heard it, it was a fable. My son who loved God so was now dead his blood screaming from the ground, as if it was saying it is your entire fault, you just wanted to know what the tree did. Cain’s Name meant acquisition- for he was the firstborn and was to become owner over all that is ours. Abel’s name meant vanity, vapor, breath, maybe that is why he was not with me long. God cursed Cain and any who killed him would be cursed and killed. Adam and I gave birth to another son named Seth. Seth meant He set or appointed or replacement. I remembered that Light that I found so much peace and calmness in and later found out that through my son Seth who is really a replacement of his father and Able, He would give the begging seed to that Light whom in your world is called Jesus Christ.
I made a mistake long ago and God had to correct that mistake a hundred times over, now that Jesus has come, you can be covered for your old mistakes and not make the same new ones, or you can bare your own burdens, when time runs out for you to get right before God. God has blessed me through my sons and daughters, now you must bless your sons and daughters through the name of Jesus. Give up letting the devil conn you out of life. Live for your husband and your wife, your sons and your daughters, that you will not to bare the pain that I bore so long ago. God will forgive you, He gave me an appointed son, that His appointed Son may live, die, and resurrect to bring life to all who will accept His name.

People give Eve a bad name, because she was tempted and overcome by her temptation, but it never stated in the bible that she sinned again before the Lord her nor Adam, How many of our records can say the same. How many times have we repented but only to fall again? Lady’s our curse was to be for our husbands, and our husbands for God {US TOO}. SO if you have a good Godly man build him up and show him that you are there for Him that you both can rest on the Holy day {SABBATH} with GOD. Please repent {give thanks to God for sparring you even in your sin, and totally ask forgiveness and never do that sin again}, walk from then on in the Lords hands and you will inherit eternal life; or pay the consequences as our ancestors did.
Get your family together. For Jesus is coming, and He is looking for that tree of Life, that it may once again be planted in His Garden. Please everyone, love God enough to do what is right in His eyes.

Monday, November 15, 2010

DEAR LORD

Dear Lord

By Michelle D Williams

Written 11.14.2010



Dear Lord,

My own fear is what kills me, yet my own fear is what builds me, how can I be in this war in my mind and say that your always on time. I go around with this pretend smile when all I want to do is cry, and see how many pills I can’t take to finally say good-bye. Many don’t know this battle that I fight, they mock me, make fun of me, men just want to run over me. Why is this life so hard that I live and wonder to what magnitude must it reach to be over? This is not a war over what color your skin, how sexy your body is, nor how good you are in bed. This is a war way beyond me. Its way beyond the power of me, it’s a war between spirits that that want control of me, one good and one bad. Why do I always give my power to the bad one and play friends with the good one. My mind is heavy Lord. Please let me not pretend any longer. It’s not a man that I seek, no real shoulder I need to lean on, it is the realness of you, that I must depend on. My life hangs in the balance, in this war when will it end. When I make a choice to have you as my all and all? Then God today is that day. No man wanted, no man needed. What I need is someone who has the upper hand in this battle that I fight, the one whose knows the direction my enemy comes, and the one who knows how far I have to go before until this race is over.

This pain runs deep into my soul. To be taken, abused, and mistreated, by the one loved so dearly and to be trampled on by those you barely know. But among the pain comes the pain of knowing that you can’t even love yourself because some how this was your fault. They abused you because “YOU WERE AT THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME”, “IF YOU JUST WOULD HAVE LISTENED…” , “NO IT WAS THE CLOTHES THAT YOU WERE WAREING”. No it wasn’t he was the whore. “YOU TEASED HIM AND HE FELT PLEASED”. No you showed a genuine smile of friendliness and kindness… it doesn’t give him the right to leave you with the reality of this nightmare… The battle of why’s, who’s, where, and when, or if I, or could I, or should I, could’ve, would’ve, but didn’t, and may have. How was I to know that Satan was there waiting for me, when I didn’t have the relationship with my good true friend.

God from now on be my Master, True Friend, Father, and my Restorer. They call this life but you don’t have to go through life with the hurt someone caused you, you only have to go thru life with God, Because He will protect you from the enemy…

While fighting for a way to die, I foud a way to fight for a way to live.....

Psalms 64

Psalms 23

Philippians 4:7

Joshua 2:09

John 14:26-27

James 4:6-10

Galatians 2:19

1 Peter 5: 10-11

Matthew 6: 9-13 The Lord’s prayer…

God has started His fire within me…I am not going to be the one to put it out again. Lord help me carry this weight…till it reaches you. In Jesus Name I Pray Amen….

AN Ex-Fornicators Prayer

AN EX-FORNICATORS PRAYER

BY MICHELLE D WILLIAMS

ON 11.15.2010



Oh Lord,


Its been a while since I have commited this sin in your sight. I have been holding my body as a living sacrifice for you. My body fights daily against my mind. My body calls out to me saying "Give me what I need to feel strong, powerful, loved, and free..But my spirit calls out saying, " The only way to be free is thru me". How is it that my body calls from this dead place in which I have cast it to, in order to walk purely this walk for you. It burns deep within the places that it once felt pleasure. But yet it craves only for one that can love it forever. Why is this ex-fornicators fight so heavy. You said that you can cast out the sin to the sea of forgetfulness, can you do the same with the memory of the pleasure that it once recieved, not from the sex itself, but from the pain that it was so accustomed to. My body had been abused so many times in this manner, that somewhere along the road it believed that it was supposed to be that way, so it craves now what it thought was pleasure. From the age of 11 men of older ages tried to make it to the place where you dwell. But they couldnt cause in my mind they were destined to hell. My cries and woes that I called out long ago, was replaced with a sense that, it is my power. If this is what they want, then this will I give, but it would cost them dearly, for the price of my tears. I have cast out this thing from me. But the memory is burning fresh. It is causing me such anquish and distress. How will you rid me of this tormoil and torment? Please God take away this flame with in me this fire that wishes not to set me free. For it is not with the hand that the pleasure is recieved but from the water, that flows beneath me. Lord help me, I am crying out. Not to have a husband to take away the draught, but the ability to sustain, and recieve self control, that I once knew only in my younger youth. So many things have befalled me with this sin, How God and when will you take it away. I have not known the pleasure that a real husband can give, prepare me for this that I can be eternally his. Lord you said that nothing is impossible for you. I am not a virgin, but its not by choice. But I want to feel purity, and able to boast to the world, what a beatiful bride I can be..for the power of God rest within me. My time on this earth is short so I need you to make hast unto me...that my soul be saved and I live with you for eternity. Please let not this pain that I have endured all these years, be for nought, and replaced more with tears. Lord you are my rock my sword and my shield. I need you to help me and others who go thru the same...for this is a good time for it to rain. Rain down your blessings and let them soak within me. For I am feeling now what love really is. No touch from a man can ever feel the same. If its not in your then all I feel is a mark that reference shame. How can one be pleased with this sin any longer. For I cannot judge for I was once a whoremonger. The thing is after it was taken I gave it up freely, thinking that if not they would take freely. I no not how to fight this shame, for the four still remains, to remind me daily of all the pain. Thru them u gave me life, and saved my soul from eternal death, now I ask that you let not this same shame be put upon them, this same pain become their own. Lord, my sin is mine alone to carry, pass by my next generations and even those after until the end of time, that they may be with you to praise you hereafter. Let not the words fornication be named upone once more, that I may be an example for those who ask me what for? Why do you restrain yourself from the pleasure of life? I have one answer for them, because I am a loser...what do i mean you say? The word of the Lord says those that lose their life (now) will gain eternal life. Id rather be a loser now, then a loser later. This world has nothing to offer me...not thing at all..for I tryied many ways to live...but pain is what I recall. Time is up for me...but its just beginning for you. Start today keeping God in your life that none of these thing fall upon you. A childs innocence taken, is an adults worse nightmare..pray for you and your children...cause Satan is just starting. Ask God to send a hedge around them that no one can penetrate, for only God knows where he is, and later He shall incarcerate. He will lock satan up in the end, and cast him into destruction, just make sure your in the first resurrection. Fornication is the only sin that is against the body, that is why now mine cries, and wails to feel what it thought was well. Some say its better to have loved than to have not loved at all, if it wasn't your husband, child, or family and friends, throw that saying to the floor. For love is not sex...nor will it ever be...Love is the relationship between God and me.



I love you fbf, GFWf, and all my relatives....rid your self of this sin now...for God is coming back...He doesn't understand this sin...for He said that you can endure all things...even the cries of the body...let it cry it will shut up, when He sends you your purpose. Your body was created as a vessel for Him...He cannot enter into...something dirty and full of sin. Clean yourselves, not with soap and water...but with the blood of Jesus Christ. For His will is strong...if you will just become a living sacrifice. If a husband is what you crave He will create Him especially for you...just like He did Adam in Genessis 2. Eve came from him, and from God. He has done it for you, for our bodies he carved. Love your body, let not no one abuse it, its not love..its not care..if they cant even marry you. Your not a cow for sale by a merchant....You are a budding angle...waiting for her wings...The man that God will send will cause you to fly and sing.. For this is a Ex-fornicators prayer, not a romance novel in practice....although I have not experienced this flight...God holds me thru the night....Lord I still pray for your help....and so do they..Help us to wait for our wings...and then with you will we sing.



I love you God....for helping me see....that an ex-fornicator is not shameful....especially when she is professing you as her all and all. My body is for you...my mind is for you....my flesh will submit to you....my spirit worships you.....But most importantly when my final rest shall come may I rest in you...and be raised up on the last day...and dwell with you for eternity.



IN JESUS NAME I PRAY THIS PRAYER AND ENCOURAGE OTHERS TO DO SO AS WELL>>>>AMEN.

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