My BIRTHDAY POEM
Current mood: blessed


Taking Back My Life From Satan and Giving it Back to God.

Today is My birthday I am 29 years old. I have lived a hard life seen and experienced things that people way older than me have nightmares about. My life is not a book of fary tales, the only fary tale that have ever come true for me is that I have four beautiful children, and God is Our Father. He has brung me to a Church of love and correction for Him.

God has shown me that even in my young age it is never to late to declare Him as the leader and lover, that I have been praying for all these years. I have looked for many diiferent thigs and people to give me love and be their in my time of fear and pain, When in reality He has been their for me even in the realm of darkness and fear. I am trying to get a total fill of Christ in my life. I have just begun to live because now I am no longer running for something or someone to run with or for me, I found out that while I was unable to walk or crawl God carried me. When I was in darkness and couldn't see my way His light shined brightly to lead me through it all. When I felt like giving up and throwing away my life to death, He kept breathing and fighting for me. My Pastor once preached a sermon called " What Kind of Love is This?" I say, this is the right love at the right time, place, and situation. This was just for me at that time.

Life has never been promised to be perfect and no suffering, in fact just the opposite is stated in the Word Of God (BIBLE), it was also perfectly demonstrated by Christ. His whole life He had to sruggle to stay alive until the day came when He had to die for our sins. In order to die for someone you first have to show your self worthy of the sacrifice, and He was a perfect sacrifice. So why since it has already been done for us, can't we just live for Him to show our appreciation, and then if called for sacrifice the very life that He granted us that someone else may believe. He is still alive pleading for us day and night, why can't we once in life plead for someone else to be saved.

A light shines in light, but it shines brighter when matched with darkness, I wish that this world was full of God's bright lights, but it's not, it is mixed with sin and evinlness. We who called are selves Christians should be able to once just shine obediently for God expecting nothing but Glory for Him. Never letting it dim, flicker, or fade away.

In the 29 years that I have lived, I have been molested, sexually abused, raped, beat up, sent to jail for omething I didn't do, and have attempted suicide, I have also been hospitalized for mental issues because of my inability to believe that someone loved me and that I was meant to be here for more than just a cheap thrill for a man or a joke from other women. God showed me last year on my 28th birthday that He wanted me to share with others my journey and help them through theirs. He called me "The Healer of Hearts". The first thing I thought was how can I help heal a heart when mine is so broken. The thing is some say a broken home is better than no home at all, that's true but God is in the healing buiseness, it is by Him that my purpose be fulfilled. That same day I was accepted in to a University of Psychology. I am walking In Faith That whether this is just for my learning and getting through my own darkness to make my light shine brighter in a background setting or if this is to become a Dr of Psychology to bring in the people of the Lord, in peace of mind in His Name, either way this walk is for Christ not for me.

I love looking over the years and seeing the heartbreak at every turn, but in Psalms 51: 17, a broken heart is a sacrifice to God because, only through Him can it be healed. That's why I sing Psalms 64 to keep me focused on a fight for the lives of Christians around the world.

I had been asking God since I was 5 years old to show me my purpose, it wasn't till I was 28 that He has shown it to me. He showed me, in order to help a broken heart, you have to become and live like the broken hearted, and in order to help them overcome it, you must first overcome it and learn from it, the what got you their in the first place, prevention is not a bad Idea, sometimes we go through things only by our own bad decisions, teaching others how to make Godly decisions can keep a heart intune for God.

This is the true battle overcoming my ways and putting on the ways of Christ. Look at your life, if you could hear God (WHICH IT IS POSSIBLE YOU CAN), what will He tell you to change about your life. LOOK AND THINK SPIRITUAL NOT CARNAL MINDED OR YOU WILL MISS THE BLESSINGS OF GOD, BECAUSE OF THE THINGS YOU THINK YOU WANT AND NOT NEED> YOU NEED CHRIST >YOU JUST WANT TO BE RICH>

Look to God for He is Alpha and Omega. The Begining and the Ending. How can you live for Him if you never start, How can He end your pain if you don't put your mind, body, soul, spirit, and heart in His hand to love it. He can only fix what you give Him.

LOVE YOU ALL, Not a Poem, But real life.

Life Is About The small Things

Life is about the small things. MICHELLE D WILLIAMS

Life is about the small things, getting up with someone you love, saying hello to a stranger, listening to your kids laugh in the next room, singing a song of praise and love, listening to the rain fall from up above, ablility to have clothes to put on, those are the things that I like to focus on.

But what happens when the big things take focus off the small things, you have to work all day so you can't watch your kids play, or a test at school causes you to have an attitude and you yell and scream at the kids or friends that you love. What happens when every goal you set is reached and it seems like your life is complete, then you realize that you can't remember for you have no good memories to reflect on. What happens when you spent your life on drugs, abandoned your kids or never showed them love, what small things do you have when you are all alone.

This is the poblem in my life now I have no time for the small things and my big things keep getting bigger.

I pray to God for help and he provides me peace when I hear or see the small things once again. Thank God for the small things, because it's the big things that take our focus off Him, but also thank Him for the big things because when it gets too big for us to bare, we Go back to our Father, cause He proves everytime that He cares; for the small things too.

Free Seminar Tuesday's and Thursdays

My church web page is located on this blog so look in and make comments there as well and maybe we can discuss some of the things you read on there, the video bar is actually a seminar that our church gives every year in the spring and in the fall you can take a look at some of them and maybe if in the neighborhood come for a visit.
God's Final Warning Minitries
1400 West Main
Lancaster, Texas 75146
(972)227-1407
The seminar is held every Tuesday and Thursday starting 9/9/2008 @7:00pm